The best of 2009 blog challenge (we'll see how this goes...)

Sooooo, I'm going to try this so here goes day one!

The best trip of 2009!

I would have to say my best trip of 2009 was going to the beach with my family in August. My parents, my sister and her friend Brittany drove down the night before and stopped half way there and stayed over night. The boy, my brother, his friend Ryan and I left early the next morning. We met my aunt and uncle and their two kids at the place we were staying. We had so much fun I've never laughed so much in my life. We enjoyed awesome food, the boys caught fresh shrimp which was AMAZING. The boy made an awesome fish dinner. We also at at really good restaurants two nights. We went to the beach every day and the we couldn't have asked for better weather. This was just a trip filled with good friends good food and good fun! (and a ton of new inside jokes!)

HAHAHAHA!

Well, I guess I won't be texting my posts in anymore, thanks Adam for discovering my screw-up. Alot has happened in the last couple of weeks. BULLET POST!

• Well, Im engaged again... and I've never been happier, except for some reason his parents don't know yet... we have been busy so I'll give him that excuse.
• I applied for unemployment because I realized that no one is going to want to hire me if I'm going to have to work at the base for three weeks one month after I would start a job.... I wouldn't hire me either, but I can't not work.... I'm still looking because I'm going crazy being at home with Gir (the dog) all day.
• I had some sort of push inside of me today to go for a run untill I actually got out of bed and it was raining....
• I'm trying to quit smoking... I only had four yesterday and only one today so far... (Hence wanting to run to keep me from being bored and then smoking)

Thats all for now I may be back later.....

Uh Oh....

So, I've been off the last three weeks... Yes every Monday night for the last three weeks my boss has texted me and said they were slow this week and didn't need me to come in.

In short, technically I'm unemployed.... Driving from dinner with the bf's fam I saw a place that was hiring a pc technician. Had a 4 1/2 hour working interview (that's what i was nervous/excited about last week) only to find out that they only wanted to hire me temporarily because I would have to be off for three weeks for my yearly time to work at the base.

I'm still technically unemployed.

No one will hire me because I need time off in the first two months of working. I wouldn't hire me either.

This causes me to start to get depressed. Which upsets me even more because I've been doing so well I've thought that all these changes in my life had made my depression and anxiety go away. I guess all it takes is one little blip of problems makes it come back. I've noticed my hands shaking more often so I'm just waiting for the total meltdown to come.

Hopefully I'll stop this soon I have to I refuse to fall back into the black hole again

Sorry for bring back the bitchy rantings, I had to!

PS. I got my book swim shipment the other day and I finished the first one in a day. I may be in love with it!

What is "Perfect" really?

So I found this here and decided to do it rather than be completely bored at work

• The perfect outfit: Jeans, Cute shirt, and my FAVE black Heels....
• The perfect meal: .... DON'T LAUGH! 1/2lb beef and cheese burrito from taco bell w/ NACHOS!
• The perfect hangover cure: see above... JK Double cheeseburger, Sweet tea, and small fry, oh and naps
• The perfect road trip: ...I don't know but I'd like to go so get ahold of me lol
• The perfect facial feature: Eyes definitely
• The perfect drink: Sweet Tea
• The perfect song: hummmm I don't know, I have music ADD so I doubt I'll ever have an answer for that one
• The perfect sign of affection: The BF will just stare at me when he wants a kiss... I promise its not creepy lol :)
• The perfect afternoon: Drinking... SWEET TEA and reading in the sun!
• The perfect vacation: Does a deployment count as a vacation because if so it was definitely going to Guam, AMAZING
• The perfect invention: post-it notes.... they make my day! :)
• The perfect type of wedding: Small, large groups of people whether I know them or not make me nervous
• The perfect album: Once again music ADD
• The perfect accent: Australian DEFINITELY
• The perfect date: something outside... like a walk or dinner on a patio of some sort?
• The perfect weather: 88 and sunny!
• The perfect party: I love the "small group of friends each with their own case of whatever" nights, they always end up with the best inside jokes!
• The perfect sport: Volleyball, I miss it
• The perfect thing to say: lol "Hey.... I love you" that always fixes whatever mood I'm in
• The perfect day of the week: Saturday!

Happy Hump Day Y'ALL!

My Oh My!

Woah guys,

I haven't disappeared, I just haven't had anything to write about for over a month...

I started this blog to document my life, sort of like a journal. That didn't happen. It turned into a place to complain about everything that annoyed, to infurriated me. I'm thinking that thats probably not somthing somone wants to read about every day, but thats not why I wrote... I wrote to get it all out, I'm a feeling bottler and it felt soooo much better to let it out here than deal with confrontations with people.

I am currently out of the feeling bottling business, hence the negletion of the blog. I'm happy now, and this amazes me because I've NEVER been a happy person.

Its not just the new bf, not just not living with my parents, not just being in a major that I completley love, it's everything, I see myself as a whole different person now, and finally I actually like this person.

So, I'm sorry if I go a while with out posting I'll try my best, (it's a lot harder without the blackberry) and I'm really excited to start posting about GOOD things instead of how horrible/f'ed up my life is!