Random Thoughts From This week

This is going to be a sort of bullet post just warning you now...

-Monday- Driving to work I see a company van that has "terrible tile" on the side...
Immediately I made the connection between "TERRIBLE TOWEL" and "terrible tile" like any burgher would and yes it is a cute play on words but... There is no way in H-E-double hockey sticks that I am hireing someone who called their company "Terrible Tile"

-Monday still - At work-Mom has been sick and emailed me that dad said that her problem could be a pocket of blood that formed after a surgery a couple of months ago and if it burst she wouldn't make it to the hospital... GOOD GOING DAD STRESSING EVERYONE OUT(love you daddy!)... (shes ok she had tests done Tuesday and Wednesday and, no if she runs into the kitchen counter I will not be mom-less)

-Tuesday- At school- I was walking down the hall way to my 11 o'clock class and overhear two nursing students talking to each other. One obviously pregnant the other probably not.... Not Preggers to Obvi Preggers: "I saw your ultrasound yesterday and your uterus is SOOOOOOO cute!".... I understand that they're nursing students but I don't care how medically knowledgeable I am, I am NEVER! going to tell a friend she has a cute uterus maybe cute fetus or what ever they're called at whatever stage but not cute uterus....

-Wednesday- The central blood bank has been calling me for a month now... So, I bit the bullet and decided to answer their call and go in and donate blood... Not realizing on the same day I was scheduled to go get my second round of the Guardasil shot... No big deal take some blood out put some medicine in right? NOT! 20 minutes after getting my shot and 1 hr after giving blood I felt wasted. Not like oh I've had one or two I'll stop now because I have to drive, I'm talking full blown falling over, incoherent, wtf is going on wasted. Good thing the lovely bf didn't have to work and drove me. If not the flocus would have been smashed somewhere along the turnpike and there would be no more me....

I'm sure something intersting will happen today who knows my life has a tendancy to be boring on occasion....

Public appology

To my blogger valentine,

I am really sorry that I have not yet sent you your valentine. My life got really hectic last week with the fam being out of town for a death in the family and well school being school and before I knew it I was waiting for 2 hours in Red Lobster with the bf for our valentines day dinner and it hit me! OH SHIT Babe I need to go to the post office NOW!!! and of course he laughed at me as he always does when I have my (all too random) freak outs and said Why?, Ash, Its 7 on a Saturday its closed just go on Monday you have off. So I explained and a little confused because hes not in to the whole technology thing (he doesn't have the Internet, OR A COMPUTER) so other than going through geek withdrawals when I'm with him I'm basically cut off from the techie world So until noon on Monday when I was watching the news and they told me that the Post Offices were closed because of some crazy holiday I forgot about (which is horrible but being with the bf is like being on vacation for me.) So in short because I'm in school all day and have two tests (that I didn't study for) I PROMISE I will send it tomorrow because I have all week off because my boss had twins (well his wife did but I guess he's sorta involved or something lol)

Love,
Ashley

Winter Blahs

I'm not sure if I've made it completely clear yet but I hate winter, I hate being cold, and I DEFINITELY hate snow! Usually I am more depressed in the winter, but I think that month I spent on a tropical island made it worse.

I've been in this mood where I feel like I'm not really a person, I'm just around like a machine or something. I go to work sleep go to school sleep go to work do homework and so on until I go to the boyfriends where I feel like I'm on vacation because I feel like its still too good to be true. I never find guys this good, but on to the other half of my usual week I feel like I have no purpose. I go to work where I'm not really needed (sort of scary in this economy.) Then I'm going to school but after being a junior at another college and then starting all over again I feel like I'm getting nowhere I could be looking for awesome internships for next year and instead I'm taking classes again that start with 1 and none of my classes are challenging at all. I'm just in a rut and hopefully I'll break out of it soon hopefully while I have the next week off of work because my boss had twins! Oh well off to my last class for the day...

Blogging in class Again...

Sooo I'm sitting in class, I'm so bored I've checked facebook myspace and read everything in my reader.... Then I remembered HEY I HAVE A BLOG not that I forgot.... Just that when it comes to doing things regularly I have a tendency to let them slip my mind every once in a while (ex. why I suck at taking the pill (and it makes me sick)).

Oh yeah, tried taking the pill again... Made me depressed the first week, sick the second week, and gave me migraines this week. So... I quit taking it... I KNOW its bad but when the bf and I choose not to behave ourselves we are more that "careful" (tmi?). I just can't handle taking birth control I had the nuva ring (all questions welcome(I'm used to it)) and loved it but it gave me migraines but didn't realize it until I had forgotten to get my prescription filled and skipped it for a month (yes again I know bad Ashley!) But that months visit from aunt Flo was probably the most pleasant... if that's possible. Does any out here have any other ideas for "secondary" birth control other than the medicine type?

Also, as I'm sitting here typing this my dad is texting me about the power being out at home because of the wind storms here's how the convo goes hope you enjoy his caveman texting as much as I do

Dad: Power out
Me: At home or school
Dad: Yes
Me: Well theres power at school now so I'm guessing at home hopefully it'll be on when I get home at 10 pm
Dad: Y generator later

I'm guessing that means yes I'm buying a generator later.... but who knows with him lol I love my daddy!

First day at the community college

OK so I've accepted that going to this school is a good thing for me.  Its not that I couldn't handle classes at SRU, and Its not that I wanted to live at home, its just better for me.

That being said... WHAT A FIRST DAY!

Class 1

Micro Computing Applications

So this class is about the office programs Power point, Excel, and Access.

I'VE DONE THIS BEFORE WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE IT AGAIN YOU HAVE MY FREAKING TRANSCRIPTS!!!!

...whew that feels better...

Class 2

Intro To Business

I know the teacher... he doesn't recognize me... I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...

SIDE STORY:

I used to work at this shitty daycare in slippery rock in the fall of 2007.  The lady was a mess A REAL MESS.  She had me fill out paper work for my clearances (which are required to work with children in PA and I'm sure damn near everywhere) and she NEVER TURNED THEM IN.  I worked there for 6 months with no clearances.  Luckily I quit before the state came and shut her down because she had let her State in home daycare certification expire, or i would have been in DEEP SHIT.  She never paid us on time ... or sometimes in my case at all.  Debt collectors would call all the time, also the electric was almost turned off because she hadn't paid the bill, but another girl and I pleaded with the guy that came because of the kids being there and all. 

Note to anyone who has or will have kids CHECK OUT YOUR DAYCARES THOROUGHLY!

BACK TO THE REAL STORY

His daughter was adorable but cried a lot especially at nap time.

ALSO, there's a girl i used to coach in cheer leading (god i feel old ).

Class 3 

Linux

For those of you who don't know what Linux is its an open source operating system (like windows) but free and easier to work with because you can get fixes and such  FO FREE!

The people in my class are pretty much all night dwellers that never leave their computers because they're constantly playing crazy games like with gnomes, elves, nymphs and shit I don't know they re just the type that are confused when a girl walks into a room because they don't know what to say ( mean i know, I'm a tech geek but these kids are BAAAAAAD)

Class 4 

PC Management

about taking apart and putting together computers

EASY! i did this stuff in high school..... 

SUMMARY : This is going to be a long boring uncomfortable semester....

 

1 good thing

Eating lunch with Amber a girl from SRU that i love!!! that also goes to bc3 

1 other bad thing

 3 hour break before my night class HORRIBLE

Congraturations!!!!

SO, sorry about last week it was a week of HELL! I am getting deployed like I said in my pants missing post. Slippery Rock University decided to email me on MONDAY saying I had to withdraw from the university because I will leaving before finals are over. This was not the CASE IN JUNE when I found out and emailed everyone and their mother about it just to make sure i was not going to get screwed over AGAIN!!! Yes, again I almost failed a class because some bimbo business teacher thought that being in her pointless consumer behavior class was more important than working at the base when I was on INVOLUNTARY ORDERS. I missed two stupid classes and two assignments that I asked about as soon as I got back but I guess they didn't exist the week I got back and MAGICALLY reappeared the week before finals. So needless to say I am no longer a student of Slippery Rock University, I don't really mind, This place is horrible its more like the school is here for the administration and the faculty not the students (THE WHOLE POINT FOR A FREAKING SCHOOL). ANYWAYS, the whole reason for this is that I went to tell my teachers that I wasn't skipping class to skip class I'm actually not a student here anymore. So going through the script with one of my teachers and I quote "Hey, I just wanted to let you know that I'm not skipping your class to skip class, I'm no longer a student at slippery rock they made me withdraw because I'm being deployed with the military." Teacher: "CONGRATURATIONS" Like I won a prize or something. HONESTLY!!! because being deployed is a good thing. I'm not complaining about being deployed I'm actually excited to go, but the ignorance of this guy who is probably here on a visa, who can't teach has to have other teachers make his power points for him, cant speak English well OF COURSE I should expect him to not know what deployment means because his pay check comes from my outrageous tuition oh yeah and EVERYONES taxes when theres some perfectly competent American that would kill for his job but couldnt get it because supposedly foreign people obviously know everything about technology. OK yes they might be more advanced in technology but teaching it in a different country NO sorry FAIL. OK I'm done ranting and I'm sorry if I sound culture centric or racist, I don't think I am but this is how I feel.

Well...

Well I'm sitting in class after my counseling center appointment, and I'm really glad I went. This guy is alot better than the guy I went to ohhhh two summers ago. He's alot easier to talk to and actualy seems like he likes his job. The other guy seemed like he hated his job, and thats not really the vibe you want to get when you're going to get help from people. ESPECIALLY if youre depressed.

So, he figured out that my depression is more of a problem than my anxiety and that it is caused by biological factors and not psychological. So, now I have to make an appointment with the dreaded health center to get medicine to get my life back on track. YAY!

This would be fine but, I hate taking pills every day. I dont like feeling like I have to depend on somone or somthing to get through the day. It was the same with birth control but I was a lot better at taking that becuase the fear of getting pregnant when you're 17 was a lot worse than being annoyed with taking pills.

I fixed that problem when I was perscribed the nuva ring which is AWESOME by the way and yes I'll answer 50 questions about it if you'd like, I'm used to it and an open person OBVIOUSLY. Although if any birth control gives you migraines, this is the only time I will not recommend it. (But, yeah I'm not a doctor so DONT LISTEN TO A THING I SAY)

Back to the aweful health center. I absoloutely HATE the Slippery Rock University Health Center. It takes for ever to see someone, and even if you are on the brink of death they think everything is solved by a cough drop. Also, before they even ask you your symptoms, not reguarding if you're male or female, they ask if theres a possibility of you being pregnant. Then, if you return because the magical cough drops didn't work (I wonder why?) they tell you that your apendix is going to burst and you need to get to the hospital right away. Mind you that its Febuary, blizzarding, oh and unless you want to take an ambulance (that costs ohh 3x your tuition) your parents that live 30 mins away, and hour and 30 mins in a bizzard, have to come get you and take yout to the hospital that is another hour and 30 mins away (in blizzard conditions) IN YOUR GRANDMA'S CAR!!!

Well ok they didn't say it in that many words but I'm sure you smell what I'm steppin in.

I'm in a really bloggy mood today so expect more later when I'm most likley supposed to be doing homework in the library

AWE

So I'm sitting in the library before my counseling center appointment and looking through blogs for posts that I have missed and I found this one!!! It is a video of foxes, yes foxes, playing on a football/lacrosse/I'm guessing soccer field at a high school in Boulder, CO

The Foxes are jumping around having a good time and I couldn't figure out what they were playing with, until I realized they are TEARING APART the field.

Which is awesome to me because when I was in 7Th grade our high school put in a turf field and trying to get to it or the track was harder than getting in to Fort Knox. They were so protective of the new track and field that pretty much if your sport was not using it you should probably not even look at it. Rightfully so though, because the field cost well over a million dollars and I'm pretty sure no one in my school district knows how much a million dollars actually is.

Too damn early

So yesterday I spent 5 hours in the library and accomplished NOTHING. Then got frustrated and went to the bar with a few friends. It was a fun relaxing night but I still have nothing done... I actually made it to my first class today. I am sort of worried because I only have a year and a half left of school (not counting this semester) and I feel like I know nothing. Granted I just picked up my major last year but the crazy amount of debt I'm in is not worth knowing nothing. Maybe that's why I feel I've given up on school....

Oh boy....

So, I haven't been sleeping well... I wake up in the middle of the night five or six times it is driving me nuts. Then this morning i wake up at 5 AM feeling like my entire left leg is broken(and I have no clue why). So not only am I tired today I'm sore as well.

I wish I had more motivation its getting to the point where I have no idea how I'm going to pass any of my classes this semester. Its not that I'm lazy I want to go to class but when it comes to getting up in the morning that determination is GONE its really hard for me to get my life together when I have class but when I get up at the same time for work I have no problem waking up for work. Maybe I should see if I can get paid to go to school? OK yeah I seriously doubt that

Well one good thing about today is that my mom is coming up to make my roommates, my sister, her roommates and my fiance lasagna for dinner!!!! So I'm not too excited about having 11 people in my apartment at once but hey it'll be a good time as long as they bring wine...

YESSSSSSSSSS its friday!!!!

So I'm sitting here in my Scripting Languages class looking at everyone else's blogs because I cant pay attention when I cant understand the teacher. Oh and I have no idea whats going on because I didn't take the prerequisite yet, but my good old buddy PJ usually helps me out. I haven't written in a while because Ive been busy. So busy that nothing interesting happened to tell you about....


Yes my life sucks UNTIL TODAY! I finally got my loan check for school thank God too. Tuesday I received an email from my apartment complex saying if I didn't pay my rent for the last three months by next week I'm getting sent to collections and EVICTED (wow i guess that was interesting, I forgot!). Yes not paying my rent for three months does sound a little irresponsible of me but they knew I was getting the loan because I gave them the letter saying i was approved and they said that was fine.


Well then the loan company needed this paper and that paper and proof that I'm a human being not a marmoset (that's an animal right? the word just popped into my head) I've never had so much trouble getting a loan before in my ENTIRE life. So now I finally have it and I go to the bank and they said that my Co signer for the loan had to sign it as well UGH never had to do that before either.

Oh well I'm in debt up to (or maybe over) my ears and I probably will be for a while.


WOW it just got really cold in this room I swear my school still has the a/c on.

so.....

so my parents live a half an hour away from where i go to school.... and they want my fiance and i to move in next year... and i have no problem with that but I'm really happy and proud of my Independence.... or my dependence on credit .... i could get soooo much of my debt paid off and not accrue any more which would be AWESOME but.... its the whole living with your parents thing again after 2 years of being on your own.... I love that I'm welcome to live in my awesome basement apartment but its the living with your parents stigma i think i could like it though any ideas?????

I'M QUITTING SCHOOL AND JOINING THE CIRCUS

I really cant take school any more... its been 5 weeks and I need a vacation already....Its not that I have that much work I think I'm just too busy and everythings gotten really hard for me I have a feeling that I hit my head really hard and knocked anything that I knew about anything out my ears. I'm just so frustrated my classes are hard and then one of my teachers can barely speak english WHICH DRIVES ME NUTS if you become an American citizen and work here LEARN THE LANGUAGE its hard enough understanding what the teacher is saying LET ALONE the concepts I'm SUPPOSED to be learning... I'll probably rant some more later but Im just really angry right now...