I've Moved

I realize I've pretty much abandoned this blog, its not really "me" anymore we grow up and enter different stages and I felt staying here was inappropriate so here is my new Home!

Love
Ash

Awkward

Today was probably the most awkward day of my life....

For one reason or another we had to get the boy's ex wife's name off of the deed for the house.
So I called attorneys in the area and got him an appointment to get the deed rewritten then we would mail some paperwork to her and she would sign it get it notarized and send it back and everything would be fine!

Well... It just happened that shes in town for Christmas and she could come and sign the paperwork her self,

OH YEAH also they were divorced a while ago but some how they were married in two different states... (I know only in my life do these things happen)

So the boy was going to pick her up, go to the appointment, get her name off of the deed and hopefully get divorced for real and come see her dog for a bit.

Well, he got off of work early and would be here 3 hours early for the appointment

So I had to clean the entire house before they got here, tried to look all pretty but they got here EARLIER than expected so my hair was half curled and half straight.... so I just pulled it up in a pony tail and looked like crap....

The boy wanted lunch so he went to the store and left us both here alone. This could have been really bad because I'm not a fan of cheaters or her for that matter even before I met her. I'm sure that if the circumstances were different we would be friends but they weren't and making small talk was impossible for the 30 mins he was gone.

The hardest thing was seeing them sitting on the couch with the dog in between them like they would have sat back when they were married.... I felt like the third wheel with my fiancee and his ex wife...

I'm going to stop rambling now they've been gone for 30 mins and I still feel awkward...

oh yeah and after venting to my mother that they werent offically divorced she called me a hussie.....

Dec. 4

Best book of 09 was definitely "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. I had stopped reading for a while and then the boy let me borrow it to read it and I LOVED IT. I was going to lend it to my mother when she was in the hospital recovering from a surgery, but I decided a book about a man before his death was not the best thing to read while in the hospital. I would recommend this book to anyone looking for a emotional roller coaster book. I'm one of those people who immerse themselves in a book and feel like you're living their life.

Best Restaurant Moment of 09!

This is a tough one...

I don't just have one but last spring every other Thursday Pat's family would get together and have dinner at his aunt's restaurant. At first, it was kind of intimidating because I didn't know anyone yet, but after a few weeks It was fun! There would always be some interesting discussion or we would be planning something (like the trip to Boston) and it was a great way for me to get to know his family!

PS.. WE GOT A NEW PUPPY! we've had her for a couple of weeks but here's a few pics!

Roxy the night we got her!

Roxy and the Christmas Tree.... this is going to be a long month...

Roxy and her big bro, Gir, playing, she follows him EVERYWHERE!

The best of 2009 blog challenge (we'll see how this goes...)

Sooooo, I'm going to try this so here goes day one!

The best trip of 2009!

I would have to say my best trip of 2009 was going to the beach with my family in August. My parents, my sister and her friend Brittany drove down the night before and stopped half way there and stayed over night. The boy, my brother, his friend Ryan and I left early the next morning. We met my aunt and uncle and their two kids at the place we were staying. We had so much fun I've never laughed so much in my life. We enjoyed awesome food, the boys caught fresh shrimp which was AMAZING. The boy made an awesome fish dinner. We also at at really good restaurants two nights. We went to the beach every day and the we couldn't have asked for better weather. This was just a trip filled with good friends good food and good fun! (and a ton of new inside jokes!)

Serious Question for Y'all

Hi,
I know is been a while and a lot of my posts start like this but, I have an honest to goodness question for you.

Would you move to space given the option?

The boy and I were watching one of those 2012 shows the other night, and they were talking about the world ending and that an option to saving humanity was to move people to space weather on a planet or a free floating space station. I'm not big on believing the whole "THE WORLD IS GOING TO END" thing, my theory is if it is going to happen it is going to happen and there is nothing anyone can do about it.

When the subject came up I thought about it for a minute and then asked the boy, "If we had the chance would you want to move the family to space even if we had kids?" He said yes and I agreed. I was a big fan of the Disney Xenon movies (no one probably knows what I'm talking about). I just think it would be cool to be on the "new frontier," obviously I would want to wait to make sure it was safe and everything before moving my family there but I am all for it!

Anyone have an opinion?

Ps. they found water on the moon....

Sleepless In Pittsburgh

I woke up at 6 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep so this is what I've been doing for the last hour

Listening to police scanner... Most interesting so far is some chick came running out of a building naked and got bitch slapped by some dude (house was said to be a drug house not G20 Related )

Reading G20 Tweets.... A lot of tweets in foreign language, or numerous RTs... and people misspelling Pittsburgh... BOO!

More later!

This is what I do when I'm nervous

I pick the nail polish off of my nails...

I just painted them yesterday, but I'm sure they'll look like this until fricken G20 is over... Just me and the puppy for an entire week :-(

"Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!" ~Motion City Soundtrack "Everything is Alright"

... I don't like this at all....

So, I won't drive downtown by myself because I'll get lost no matter if I had Myron Cope's ghost in my passenger seat (we miss you!), but I LOVE being in THE CITY. I love the energy, I love the landscape, I love all the interesting buildings (we don't have these things in where-da-heck-r-we, PA). Pittsburgh is a BEAUTIFUL city.

This is why I don't like the G-20 Summit coming to "my" city. I could care less about the crusty old rich guys meeting and deciding decisions about god knows what ( I probably should know but I'm broke enough not to care, and uninterested). What I am interested in/upset about is the protesters!

Do you people HONESTLY think that making a ruckus and destroying things is going to make anyone listen to you. YOU ACT LIKE CHILDREN! and children that act like this get disciplined. Most of you are adults (or children drug into this way of life by delusional adults and I am deeply sorry for you come live with me I don't throw poop at people like monkeys) and are either arrested or injured because of responsible people took oaths to protect our city our state and our country. If you don't like the way these countries run FUCKING LEAVE! We don't want you here as much as you hate everything.

Honestly I understand protesting when strikes happen and things like that but other than that you look like overgrown emo kids "I hate everything." Why don't you all get together and buy an Island and run your "ANARCHIST" groups there... I don't really understand anarchist groups because they still have leaders and such soooo.... doesn't that go against your whole purpose?

This video scares me I'm afraid for the city, the people that live in the city, and the people (that I may not know or the ones I live and work with)who maybe by choice or not have to deal with the overgrown emo kids.

OHHH BOY DO I HAVE A LOT TO SAY

So, for the first time since probably 1999, I watched the MTV VMAs....

I WILL NOT COMMENT ON KANYE BEING A DOUCHE 1 because everyone else has and 2 he's like a toddler they make a scene so they get attention but here is a link of his other douche baggery episodes.

also this is fake but funny!

haha and this too sorry I'M DONE REALLY

SO on to the cool stuff that happened...

The beginning of Beyonce's performance gave me a flash back of an old school hit

Beyonce

Beyoncé - New Music - More Music Videos

JLO

I haven't decided if I like lady gaga yet or not but her performance was really interesting!

Lady Gaga - New Music - More Music Videos

MY FAVORITE was Pink!

P!nk - New Music - More Music Videos

I LOVE EMINEM's hair dark I've always had a secret weird attraction to him idk why but yeah mmmmmmmm hello!....(ok his eyes are a lil crazy here but its all good)



OH and on the issue of hair I love Kristen Stewart's hair cut even though she pretty much sucks as an actress




Oh on suckage Katy Perry ruined that song BUT I want her outfit for a halloween costume or somthing?




And I am highly annoyed with Russel Brand I never liked him except in That Adam Sandler movie Bedtime Story....

Ohhh ow ow ow!

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Yes, It's another one of "those" posts...

Ever since I can remember I've always got chills when I hear "The Star Spangled Banner"

I loved family day at the base and I got to go see what daddy did when he was at work

When we would pick up dad after he was deployed on a trip I would yell "DADDY" every time someone in uniform would walk past the car (I was obviously VERY Young)

Sitting in Mrs. Custer's Fundamentals of Physics and Chemistry class beside Heather and Jake and Matt and Zach were behind us the classroom TV turned on automatically. It really was like the world stopped turning... Matt and Zach didn't try to steal the notes out of Heather and my back pockets Mrs. Custer was sitting up front looking confused because the class was actually behaving for once (she couldn't see or hear that the TV was on she was one of "those" teachers). The teachers didn't teach that day, no one threw pickles on the windows in the cafeteria, we went through our normal schedule going from class to class, then sat down and watched the news. There were no announcements made I suppose it was all understood.

On the walk home we didn't go through all the notes we had written for each other and talk about how cute Jeremy's butt looked in his "south pole" jeans or why Jon and I were broke up again we just walked. It seems weird now but then, we didn't know what to say. We went to Lindsey's house like we did everyday hoping to see TRL to gain that normalcy we were looking for, even with MTV there was no relief for the next 48 hours watching the same clips over and over again. When we signed on the Internet there were pictures of it everywhere you clicked.

Dad didn't come home that night, the base was on lock down for safety and mission requirements, he came home the next evening. We refueled the fighter jets that flew up and down the coast. (well ok we still do)

I can't say I was scared, I can't say I was awestruck, it was more of a numbness when you can't feel anything you just watch hoping that it was somewhere else hoping that it was fake that it didn't really happen. But, it did and it sunk in in the passing weeks.

I didn't join the military because of the 9/11 attacks it was just something that was on my path. That feeling of this is where I'm supposed to be. I enjoyed basic training as weird as it sounds. I need someone else to push me, I need someone to tell me I can't do something so I can prove them wrong and when I do you better take note.

August 7, 2004 was when I made my oath of enlistment. June 28, 2005 was when I left for basic training. August 12, I graduated basic training, October 19, 2005 I left Texas after finishing Tech school. November 28, 2008 I was deployed to Guam. December 31, 2008 I came home from Guam.

I look at that and say that's it! That's all I've done...



I have so much left to do!





My family and I at my dad's retirement breakfast!




I've never felt I needed to write about that day since the night of 9/11/2001 until now, everything in between seems so cloudy compared to the memories of that day.

When You Realize School Is Keeping You Sane...

Obviously, I'm still unemployed. Luckily I started school a couple weeks ago. I have 3 internet classes. At first I was terrified of these classes, but now I check these more than I check Facebook.... I enjoy them because I don't have to sit in class and listen to some teacher drone on reading the power point that came with the book verbatim. And those people that are constantly interrupting asking questions!

I don't have a problem with people asking questions but when every other slide change their hand goes up and they open their mouth and stupid comes out. If you're that lost maybe you should have taken the prereq. for the class or hey READ THE FREAKING BOOK!

Oops off topic once again... Back to the wonderfulness of internet classes. I like that if I'm bored I can get 3 weeks ahead in some classes and the others have alot of work to keep me busy. Thus keeping me sane!

I dont think I really knew what I was getting into I was like oh it'll take me five mins log on type some stuff and log back off DONE! NOPE! Reading and typing and debating and papers and quizes and writing programs and WOW I'm tired just thinking about it and I have to leave for my one actual on campus class that is 75 miles away YEAH I KNOW! I'm crazy for driving that far but thats the only school that has my major thats relatively close.... More on that later

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired...

I'm tired, like really really tired. I don't feel sick, but I can't sleep enough today... I feel lazy. Maybe I've just been too busy last week with school and Audra's wedding over the weekend...

Ohhhh... THE WEDDING... beautiful, but stressful I had no idea what was going on and neither did anyone else.... and Pat only took one picture.... but there's always facebook....

Today's kinda scrambled and I can't think straight, maybe tommorow

UGH!!!

I'm really annoyed with my lack of creativity. I haven't written in a LONG TIME. That bothers me. Is my life just that boring or have I fallen in to an I'm so busy with nothing to do slump.... I'll figure it out.

Anyways!

Went dress shopping last week for the wedding... I HAD NO CLUE HOW HEAVY WEDDING DRESSES ARE! Also, my lack of tatas dont help hold up 80 lb dresses (ok maybe exaggerating a little...)

In between now and the last time I posted I've been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia... (which doesn't pass spell check...). Its a type of chronic fatigue/pain syndrome and I'm hoping to find other people that know about it or have it to talk to. I've had it and known I had it for a while but finally after billions of tests I'm finally able to work on managing it. Fortuneatly it's not going to kill me but it's not going to go away either.... I have a hard time getting motivated to do things to keep it in check, like exercising and eating better. Any advice on low impact exercise programs would be awesome I'm supposed to do an hour a day (yeah redic right! haha). Its hard for Pat (the fiance) to understand that I'm just to tired or achy to do somthing... like when he comes home at 730 pm with a ton of mulch (not litteraly but there was a lot) and expects to mow, weed whack, and weed some more and mulch all by 830 when it gets dark..... I looked at him and laughed untill I realized he was serious and then weeded untill I could weed no more. He did finish most of it right after dark and it looks wonderful, I just wish I could have helped more.

But enough of that, school starts tommorow, well my internet classes do my other one starts Tuesday, I hate the long drive to campus so hopefully I like the internet classes and maybe transfer to a soley internet program like from ITT tech (email me if you've done this!) and hopefully eventually get a degree!

What Would You Do?

I just saw Heather Armstrong from Dooce on GMA speaking about mommy bloggers receiving products and money from companies to write about products on their blogs. I obviously am not a mommy blogger and won't be for atleast a few years, but I still have an opinion on this subject.

I have no problem accepting products sent to me for free to write about. My only condition is the companies fully understand that if their product truely sucks I will tell the world... ok the people who accidentally end up here, how I feel about the product.

Unfortunately, I have not been sent anything and I'm sure after that last comment I probably never will. Oh Well...

Also, my point of this post is, not that I'm suprised, but that Heather Armstrong had no problem saying she was against accepting perks from companies to promote their products. I'm thinking this is a very controversial issue among mommy bloggers, and I enjoy hearing different people's opinons on issues when they aren't bashing the other side just stating that this is why they do things this way (hers was preserving the trust of her audience).

I would enjoy free stuff, does that make me a sellout? What is your opinion?

Its a sad day...

Well, due to financial issues I've decided to downgrade and sell the flocus.... She was my first new car and its hard to get rid of her. She is a good car, never any problems, but shes expensive. It costs a little over 300 a month to keep her not counting gas.... If I buy the car Pat found for me it will be a little over 100 a month, or less depending on how much I get for the flocus, and better on gas.

I'm gonna miss her....

anyone with good advice? or that wants to buy the flocus shes an awesome car!

I'm Not Dead I Promise!

Hey all, I'm back again. The unemployed life does not give me a whole lot to write about.

Honestly, it gives me nothing to write about... I wake up smoke while letting the Gir (the dog) out. Sit around applying for work at home jobs... (any suggestions?). Take the occasional snack break, email my mom all day, and wait for Pat (formerly bf but since we're engaged now I'm using his name) to get home and usually spend the evening watching him play video games or just being random like we are.

Pat's car got flooded in a bad storm a couple of weeks ago and he has been driving mine (the Flocus). That's why I don't really leave the house. I finally got her back yesterday just in time for a doctors appointment and visiting my mom at work.

By the way my mom is just about as busy as I am but she gets paid to sit there and email me things all day. Her new topic "the wedding" so we haven't set a date and we haven't really decided on anything, we know it's next fall, THATS IT. That's not good enough she wants to know everything. Daily, and sometimes bi-daily she asks if we've decided on a date, or how many people, or colors, which we haven't. I'm hoping she'll stop asking me soon. She also emails me a lot of pictures of dresses which is nice but 37 in one day... I should start training for when we actually do go dress shopping and I actually have to try them on!

I'm still pretty lonely here and our favorite bar just closed which makes me really sad!

Like I said nothing to write about.... but if you've made it this far you read my messy nonsense anyways... lol alright time to find another snack!

HAHAHAHA!

Well, I guess I won't be texting my posts in anymore, thanks Adam for discovering my screw-up. Alot has happened in the last couple of weeks. BULLET POST!

• Well, Im engaged again... and I've never been happier, except for some reason his parents don't know yet... we have been busy so I'll give him that excuse.
• I applied for unemployment because I realized that no one is going to want to hire me if I'm going to have to work at the base for three weeks one month after I would start a job.... I wouldn't hire me either, but I can't not work.... I'm still looking because I'm going crazy being at home with Gir (the dog) all day.
• I had some sort of push inside of me today to go for a run untill I actually got out of bed and it was raining....
• I'm trying to quit smoking... I only had four yesterday and only one today so far... (Hence wanting to run to keep me from being bored and then smoking)

Thats all for now I may be back later.....

y spiffy phone I can tweet blog and read more often which makes me very happy! Later Dudes!