Wednesday, June 17, 2009


Well, I guess I won't be texting my posts in anymore, thanks Adam for discovering my screw-up. Alot has happened in the last couple of weeks. BULLET POST!

  • Well, Im engaged again... and I've never been happier, except for some reason his parents don't know yet... we have been busy so I'll give him that excuse.
  • I applied for unemployment because I realized that no one is going to want to hire me if I'm going to have to work at the base for three weeks one month after I would start a job.... I wouldn't hire me either, but I can't not work.... I'm still looking because I'm going crazy being at home with Gir (the dog) all day.
  • I had some sort of push inside of me today to go for a run untill I actually got out of bed and it was raining....
  • I'm trying to quit smoking... I only had four yesterday and only one today so far... (Hence wanting to run to keep me from being bored and then smoking)

Thats all for now I may be back later.....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

y spiffy phone I can tweet blog and read more often which makes me very happy! Later Dudes!
1 google phone and I love it except I can't get my school mail on it yet because its not a normal email address. I'll figure it out... Now that I have m
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Reading list!

After moving in with the bf I've started reading a lot because he has his video games that he plays for hours on end. I would play with him but... I can't seem to get the hang of moving these peeps around. They tend to get stuck on corners walls or ladders. Here is my list of books I have read in 2009. I'm not going to tell you about the books just how I enjoyed them. You should read them for yourself and if you have.... add some suggestions for next reading list additions.

1. The Last Lecture by: Randy Pauch

I'm pretty sure I wrote about this before. It was an amazing book. I get way too involved in books and this one was an emotional roller coaster. I read his childhood memories like they were my own, but I also read doctors advice like it was meant for me.

2. A Version of the Truth by: Jennifer Kaufman

This book sums up my feelings right now. No job, broke, no education, and no valuable experience (except for waiting tables for a good third of my life (ok not quite that much but almost)).

3., 4., 5., 6. The Twilight Series by: Stephanie Meyer

Yeah, I didn't want to read these because of the tween-teen obsession, I honestly figured they'd be dumb. Surprisingly, or not I couldn't put them down. I was obsessed and I told my bf about the books like I was on a first name basis with all of them (he was obsessed too always wanting to know what was going on, I couldn't talk him into reading them himself....)

7. Fearless Fourteen by: Janet Evanovich

I started reading this series my senior year of high school. I had two study halls and access to the "adult" section of the library. I knocked out the first eight or more pretty quickly. After I got busy with college I forgot how much I actually liked reading books and forgot about the series usually I'd catch up during the summer, and 15 is coming out soon. I'm excited you can bet that one will be #1 in my book swim book pool. I think I secretly wish I were Stephanie Plum. This was my first book rented from book swim and I must say I am pleased!

8. Waiter's Rant by: Steve Dublanica

I've just started this so I'll update this later it seems good though!

Uh Oh....

So, I've been off the last three weeks... Yes every Monday night for the last three weeks my boss has texted me and said they were slow this week and didn't need me to come in.

In short, technically I'm unemployed.... Driving from dinner with the bf's fam I saw a place that was hiring a pc technician. Had a 4 1/2 hour working interview (that's what i was nervous/excited about last week) only to find out that they only wanted to hire me temporarily because I would have to be off for three weeks for my yearly time to work at the base.

I'm still technically unemployed.

No one will hire me because I need time off in the first two months of working. I wouldn't hire me either.

This causes me to start to get depressed. Which upsets me even more because I've been doing so well I've thought that all these changes in my life had made my depression and anxiety go away. I guess all it takes is one little blip of problems makes it come back. I've noticed my hands shaking more often so I'm just waiting for the total meltdown to come.

Hopefully I'll stop this soon I have to I refuse to fall back into the black hole again

Sorry for bring back the bitchy rantings, I had to!

PS. I got my book swim shipment the other day and I finished the first one in a day. I may be in love with it!