Thursday, January 29, 2009

2 yes i said 2 self proclaimed snow days in a row

So.... yeah living in the middle of nowhere has its positives... but it also has its downsides. When you live in the middle of nowhere you never get to leave your house when it snows/ices butt loads. I guess the local/state/federal(?) governments believe that us hicks "ain't got nowhere to go!" Yes we have 4 wheel drive vehicles that can go in the snow I guess maybe when I bought my little focus I should have thought about that. OH WELL It gives me an excuse to stay home from work and school for 2 days!!! and what a wonderful two days they were.... I did some laundry and some much needed room cleaning (mostly unpacking from Guam!)(yes I am aware of my laziness) and the new BF came to visit yesterday (he's crazy for going all that way in the snow but hey he loves me!
and that's about it for today!

Friday, January 23, 2009

I think I'm over reacting but...

So, I'm sitting here furiously texting the bf about my horrible day (and it was only 9:30) and I decide to venture to google reader for some relief. I saw a few posts that made me giggle... (like this one from Bex . (I wish my roommates would leave me presents like that... but for the time being I'm living with my parents SO... yeah not happening.)) Then I came along this one which really started me thinking...

(If you don't want to read a huge amount of my mind wandering... scroll to the last paragraph... yeah... its one of those)

Yes, I still feel new to blogging, but other than the few from or about Guam, 99.9% of my posts are random rantings about everyday troubles that everyone has. Most of the time I am A O K with that but lately I have also been thinking about how, in high school, I used to take pride in my writing. It was one of my many gifts I am thankful to have received from some sort of higher being or just the luck of the draw. I loved writing, dancing, and plain being alive. Granted there were the typical heartbreaks and disappointments that fueled a ton of musings, but the works that came from the "good times" were always my best.

I guess my question is does my writing suck because I'm angrier or am I angrier because my writing sucks.... just kidding. Why is it that I haven't grown as a writer even though I've taken great strides as a person. Maybe, I've found things that are easier outlets for expression (including but not limited to screaming old Back Street Boys, or any, songs in my car.)

In short I think what i am saying is, I'm disappointed in my blog. I feel like its more of a journal than something for others to read, or even for me to be proud of.... Or maybe I'm just having a bad day? Oh well its Friday, I'm going tanning and then to the BF's for the weekend so it should be good despite the fact that we both have drill.

...and it just got a little better when the rather attractive FedEx guy came in...

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

First day at the community college

OK so I've accepted that going to this school is a good thing for me.  Its not that I couldn't handle classes at SRU, and Its not that I wanted to live at home, its just better for me.

That being said... WHAT A FIRST DAY!

Class 1
Micro Computing Applications
So this class is about the office programs Power point, Excel, and Access.

...whew that feels better...

Class 2
Intro To Business
I know the teacher... he doesn't recognize me... I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...

I used to work at this shitty daycare in slippery rock in the fall of 2007.  The lady was a mess A REAL MESS.  She had me fill out paper work for my clearances (which are required to work with children in PA and I'm sure damn near everywhere) and she NEVER TURNED THEM IN.  I worked there for 6 months with no clearances.  Luckily I quit before the state came and shut her down because she had let her State in home daycare certification expire, or i would have been in DEEP SHIT.  She never paid us on time ... or sometimes in my case at all.  Debt collectors would call all the time, also the electric was almost turned off because she hadn't paid the bill, but another girl and I pleaded with the guy that came because of the kids being there and all. 
Note to anyone who has or will have kids CHECK OUT YOUR DAYCARES THOROUGHLY!


His daughter was adorable but cried a lot especially at nap time.

ALSO, there's a girl i used to coach in cheer leading (god i feel old ).

Class 3 

For those of you who don't know what Linux is its an open source operating system (like windows) but free and easier to work with because you can get fixes and such  FO FREE!

The people in my class are pretty much all night dwellers that never leave their computers because they're constantly playing crazy games like with gnomes, elves, nymphs and shit I don't know they re just the type that are confused when a girl walks into a room because they don't know what to say ( mean i know, I'm a tech geek but these kids are BAAAAAAD)

Class 4 
PC Management

about taking apart and putting together computers

EASY! i did this stuff in high school..... 

SUMMARY : This is going to be a long boring uncomfortable semester....
1 good thing

Eating lunch with Amber a girl from SRU that i love!!! that also goes to bc3 

1 other bad thing
 3 hour break before my night class HORRIBLE

Monday, January 12, 2009

Still bored

So... I'm sitting here waiting for my bosses to get out of a meeting. So one can look at stuff before I send it out. Eventhough I probably won't send it out today because I'm leaving in 45 mins.

I've had self proclaimed A.D.D. all day. I think it's because I'm going out for Tacos and Margaritas later!!!

I can't wait I've missed my girls sooo much and I saw some on saturday but I'll most likley see everyone tonight and then... back here tommorow Oh Ew..... then to the vagina doctor.... is that time of the month a bad time to go to the vagina doctor... I didn't really think about that.... EEK!!!

Back to work

Ok, Today is my first day back at work...

I have NOTHING to do

I was gone a month and a half....

Does this mean I'm not needed?

Kinda scary

Thursday, January 8, 2009


I'm used to not sleeping so I'm not sure if my time zones are still screwed up or if its normal....
I'll get really tired and try to go to sleep but then out of nowhere I can't sleep if my life depended on it IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY! Its been happening since I got back. Usually I won't get to sleep until late as in after midnight and then I'll wake up anywhere between 4am and 6am and I'll be tired all day but I'm afraid taking naps will make it worse.

Any advice?

I've tried eating tons of carbs which usually work but no such luck....

and I don't think its the anxiety I'm pretty happy, unless its my subconscious still feeling bad for the ex-fiance

I'm dreading going back to work I can only imagine the pile of to dos on my desk is HUGE!!! but i do miss it but Monday is still going to suck

I think I'm starting to get tired ADD is setting in.... OBVIOUSLY

Until We Meet Again Loves!!!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Not, not dating

So,  I was engaged.... but wasn't happy.  It was one of those things where I was waiting for things to get better and as usual they didn't.  After being in Guam for umm 3 days I realized that I was happier there than I had been since we got back  together.  

So,  I broke it off..... 

Probably the hardest thing I've ever done IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.  Luckily all of my family and friends have been amazingly supportive and made it a lot easier on me.  

I had made my decision while in Guam and a week or so after, I met someone.  We pretty much couldn't stay away from each other It was awesome.  I still felt guilty because technically I was still engaged because I couldn't break up with Chris over the phone because I felt that was really rude.  So when people would ask what is going  on between us we would reply were not not dating. 

I'm  not going to lie,  a tropical island is an awesome place to meet someone!!!!

Friday, January 2, 2009


Hey guys Im back sorry I didn't write much while I was on deployment in GUAM I'm missing the 80 degree days and going to the beach every day and my nose started running as soon as the plane landed but i'll get to stories later i'm humgry